“Isolated

fear
I’m
isolated
caught up in my mind
void
no sense of purpose have no sense of time
secluding myself
in a 4 by 4 room
can’t escape this fear,
this pain will end soon

I see the demon inside my mind manifesting before me
I wish I could see I’m blinded by this fragmented reality

salvation
does not exist
sedated
into my own bliss
agonizing
mental anguish
day by day
I struggle within
I want this suffering to end

I
will surrender
to that voice in my head
it’s so persistent
it whispers you’ll be dead
how
do I silence
The noise that fills my head
it’s so persistent
makes me wish i was dead

clench
my hands into a fist
veins
Bulge out of both my wrists
dazed
by inner turmoil
death
is at my disposal

I surrender
salvation
does not exist
I have given up agonizing mental anguish

I
will surrender
to that voice in my head
it’s so persistent
it whispers you’ll be dead
how
do I silence
The noise that fills my head
it’s so persistent
makes me wish i was dead

As I reflect on everything I have ever done and everything that has happened to me,
I can no longer live with myself.

I take this blade against my throat
Against my throat”