“
Bloodshot eyes

Time keeps ticking second by second
I keep obsessing over managing every single minute of my worthless fucked up pathetic life
I wish I could fall asleep until the end of time

my fear
takes the helm
of the love I know
I am told I have more to offer to this world
than what I have shown
woe
grief
pain
wrath
Seek the light everyone talks about
Surrounded by the figures that see my fears and doubts

I close my eyes embrace my fate voices whisper there’s no escape

Fear is an illusion
Stay focused, tune out delusions and doubts

Breathe
deceiving dreams
desolate scenes
this is not happening to you
despairing thoughts
deceitful plots
despondent I will follow through

I want to die more than you’ll ever know
I have found that the truth I have obtained has led me to rot on my own
I wish I could be more than what I promised to myself

Please save me
Lord help me for I am my own destruction


Breathe
deceiving dreams
desolate scenes
this is not happening to you
despairing thoughts
deceitful plots
despondent I will follow through
Death, etched in my mind, the sands of time
My hourglass has reached its end
impending doom, secluded room,
To transcend misery and gloom

I am not proud of the mistakes that I’ve made in my life
I am negligent the paragon of failure
Self-reflecting I’m now aware patterns and tendencies create a vicious fucking cycle that never ends
I transcend, my will is gone
The voices led me to see this fucking through drift into the great beyond”